1 00:02:14,259 --> 00:02:15,294 Okay. 2 00:02:38,116 --> 00:02:40,573 You are very brave. 3 00:02:40,661 --> 00:02:43,323 To be brave for doing something. 4 00:02:43,413 --> 00:02:47,031 You live in Rome, then you are brave. 5 00:02:47,125 --> 00:02:48,285 Okay, okay. 6 00:02:48,377 --> 00:02:50,163 First of all. 7 00:02:50,712 --> 00:02:51,712 Good. 8 00:02:51,797 --> 00:02:53,412 What did you do this morning? 9 00:02:53,507 --> 00:02:56,999 This morning I had some work to do 10 00:02:57,094 --> 00:03:01,633 'cause I'm still preparing this new project. 11 00:03:03,892 --> 00:03:09,182 We are waiting for the money, as usual it's not easy, 12 00:03:11,108 --> 00:03:15,317 but I'm confident we're gonna find it. 13 00:03:16,488 --> 00:03:19,400 So, for homework. 14 00:03:22,035 --> 00:03:25,948 Write ten sentences in past continuous tense 15 00:03:26,039 --> 00:03:28,746 using verbs you like. 16 00:03:28,834 --> 00:03:31,621 Any verb you choose, 17 00:03:31,712 --> 00:03:34,203 the important thing is that it's past continuous. 18 00:03:34,297 --> 00:03:37,255 Okay, wait. 19 00:03:37,342 --> 00:03:39,879 I have a little thing for you. 20 00:03:39,970 --> 00:03:43,337 Turn around, it's a surprise. 21 00:03:43,432 --> 00:03:45,673 Don't be scared. 22 00:04:08,832 --> 00:04:10,743 Do I have to make a wish? 23 00:05:24,574 --> 00:05:26,110 How's the baby? 24 00:05:26,201 --> 00:05:27,566 Good. 25 00:05:28,787 --> 00:05:30,493 Does she speak Italian? 26 00:05:35,919 --> 00:05:37,455 Bits of them together. 27 00:05:40,215 --> 00:05:44,504 It's complicated, 'cause I don't understand moldavian. 28 00:05:44,594 --> 00:05:47,131 - It's the mother's fault. - Yes! 29 00:05:47,806 --> 00:05:49,717 Women! 30 00:06:08,577 --> 00:06:10,909 - How are you? - Good. 31 00:06:20,338 --> 00:06:25,674 It's not the season for radicchio trevigiano, right? 32 00:06:25,760 --> 00:06:28,502 No, trevigiano is not now. 33 00:06:36,855 --> 00:06:41,519 I'll come back tomorrow for pineapple and beans. 34 00:08:00,397 --> 00:08:03,184 - Hey! - Hey! 35 00:08:13,034 --> 00:08:14,945 Mama? 36 00:08:15,036 --> 00:08:16,776 - Mama? - Yes? 37 00:08:16,871 --> 00:08:20,784 - Well, can you... can you order? - No, we did, we did. 38 00:08:26,840 --> 00:08:29,081 No, she told me that she's, like, 39 00:08:29,175 --> 00:08:31,336 gonna take this little Clay 40 00:08:31,428 --> 00:08:34,090 and put it in another thing and... 41 00:08:35,306 --> 00:08:36,762 I can't understand shit. 42 00:08:45,233 --> 00:08:47,519 Yes, I put some salt. 43 00:08:47,610 --> 00:08:50,397 Let's put it all if... If it's gonna last... 44 00:08:50,488 --> 00:08:54,356 Hey, when I... when I speak to you in Italian, help me! 45 00:08:54,451 --> 00:08:56,362 Please don't answer in english, huh? 46 00:08:56,453 --> 00:08:58,660 - Okay. - Okay. 47 00:09:09,716 --> 00:09:11,331 - All right. - Is it done? 48 00:09:17,515 --> 00:09:19,051 Yeah, no. 49 00:09:21,227 --> 00:09:22,342 Okay? 50 00:09:22,437 --> 00:09:24,143 - Two minutes and we eat. - Okay. 51 00:09:27,067 --> 00:09:28,557 Mama, look! 52 00:09:40,413 --> 00:09:42,119 They are the only two inhabitants. 53 00:09:42,207 --> 00:09:44,414 All that is heard is the sound of their breath. 54 00:09:44,501 --> 00:09:46,867 Mother asleep by bar, covered up and warm, 55 00:09:46,961 --> 00:09:51,455 but now appears... Appears far away. 56 00:09:51,549 --> 00:09:53,881 Clint kneels before the girl. 57 00:10:23,623 --> 00:10:25,579 Pupa, you hungry? Hungry? 58 00:10:26,876 --> 00:10:27,876 Yeah? 59 00:10:29,295 --> 00:10:32,037 Nikki, do you want a lot? 60 00:10:32,132 --> 00:10:34,748 Are you hungry? 61 00:10:34,843 --> 00:10:36,629 This. 62 00:10:36,719 --> 00:10:38,334 Put it. 63 00:10:44,102 --> 00:10:46,468 - Want some oil? - No, grazie. 64 00:11:04,539 --> 00:11:05,824 So we're ready. 65 00:13:11,416 --> 00:13:13,452 - Yo. - Hey. 66 00:13:13,543 --> 00:13:15,534 - Did she go down? - Yes. 67 00:13:15,628 --> 00:13:17,869 - Easy? - Finally. 68 00:13:17,964 --> 00:13:20,296 - Is she asleep? - Finally asleep. 69 00:13:22,260 --> 00:13:25,673 I'm reading this thing, I don't know... 70 00:13:25,763 --> 00:13:27,503 What is it about? 71 00:13:27,598 --> 00:13:29,384 No, it's, um, you know, 72 00:13:29,475 --> 00:13:32,182 it's the section with, uh, you know, 73 00:13:32,270 --> 00:13:34,226 the thing that you... The feeling is 74 00:13:34,314 --> 00:13:37,056 they traverse the galaxy and now on the other side, 75 00:13:37,150 --> 00:13:39,857 they're... it's only two inhabitants. 76 00:13:39,944 --> 00:13:41,855 All that is heard is the sound of their breath. 77 00:13:41,946 --> 00:13:44,358 Mother asleep by bar, covered up and warm, 78 00:13:44,449 --> 00:13:46,064 but now appears. 79 00:13:46,159 --> 00:13:47,990 Clint kneels before Russian girl. 80 00:13:48,077 --> 00:13:49,283 That part. 81 00:13:50,747 --> 00:13:53,864 I just don't know whether it's, um... 82 00:13:53,958 --> 00:13:55,494 Too sentimental, or... 83 00:13:55,585 --> 00:13:57,917 And also, I... 84 00:13:58,004 --> 00:14:00,837 - No, it seems so sweet. - I don't know... 85 00:14:00,923 --> 00:14:02,709 You like it? - Yes. 86 00:14:02,800 --> 00:14:05,507 I think it's very... 87 00:14:05,595 --> 00:14:08,211 It's like a dream, it's like... 88 00:14:09,891 --> 00:14:14,885 Something, you know, out of this world. 89 00:14:14,979 --> 00:14:17,971 At least, you know, you have a purpose to... 90 00:14:18,066 --> 00:14:19,647 No, I think... I don't know. 91 00:14:19,734 --> 00:14:22,020 There's something wrong about it, I don't know. 92 00:14:22,111 --> 00:14:24,477 I had something else I wanted to... 93 00:14:29,077 --> 00:14:30,442 How are you? 94 00:14:31,829 --> 00:14:33,535 I'm tired. 95 00:14:33,623 --> 00:14:36,205 - Yeah? - I'm tired. 96 00:14:36,292 --> 00:14:39,659 I'm tired, you know, she's really... 97 00:14:39,754 --> 00:14:43,167 - She seems good, though, huh? - She's good, but she's... 98 00:14:43,257 --> 00:14:46,875 You know, it's not like you just stay with her. 99 00:14:46,969 --> 00:14:49,085 - I know. - You really gotta be very... 100 00:14:49,180 --> 00:14:53,844 All your focus is only the baby, the baby, the baby. 101 00:14:53,935 --> 00:14:55,746 - I know, I know, I know. - You forgot about... 102 00:14:55,770 --> 00:14:57,135 I know it better than anyone. 103 00:14:57,230 --> 00:15:01,314 - Yes. - L1 think, you know, it's normal 104 00:15:01,401 --> 00:15:04,689 with a baby, but, you know, you just gotta... 105 00:15:06,864 --> 00:15:08,820 Unless you aren't happy with me anymore. 106 00:15:10,827 --> 00:15:12,112 You don't even know. 107 00:15:12,203 --> 00:15:14,239 - Sometimes. - I know, I know. 108 00:15:14,330 --> 00:15:16,446 - Sometimes. - Wrong question. 109 00:15:16,541 --> 00:15:20,033 Sometimes I am... 110 00:15:20,128 --> 00:15:22,961 You know, sometimes you just don't talk with me, 111 00:15:23,047 --> 00:15:25,504 you don't communicate with me, 112 00:15:25,591 --> 00:15:27,127 you don't... 113 00:15:27,218 --> 00:15:28,924 =I know. You know... 114 00:15:29,011 --> 00:15:31,878 - We get busy. - You're so busy, 115 00:15:31,973 --> 00:15:35,886 and you forget about that I'm a woman 116 00:15:35,977 --> 00:15:37,513 and I'm different. 117 00:15:37,603 --> 00:15:40,310 Okay, well, what should I know? 118 00:15:42,191 --> 00:15:43,772 Hmm? 119 00:15:43,860 --> 00:15:44,860 Yeah. 120 00:15:44,944 --> 00:15:47,026 You forget I'm a man, huh? 121 00:15:47,113 --> 00:15:49,855 This is what I'm talking about. 122 00:15:49,949 --> 00:15:52,281 I forget you're a man also 123 00:15:52,368 --> 00:15:55,155 because I have this little... 124 00:15:55,246 --> 00:15:56,452 Baby. 125 00:15:56,539 --> 00:15:57,699 I know. 126 00:15:58,875 --> 00:16:00,490 Us. 127 00:16:16,851 --> 00:16:18,762 She's asleep now. 128 00:16:20,062 --> 00:16:21,598 Not here. 129 00:16:28,613 --> 00:16:30,274 Touch. 130 00:16:32,158 --> 00:16:33,773 It's so nice. 131 00:17:04,482 --> 00:17:07,019 Oh, such a beautiful ass. 132 00:17:08,277 --> 00:17:10,233 Oh, baby. 133 00:18:36,365 --> 00:18:38,230 Mama. 134 00:18:38,326 --> 00:18:40,817 Mama. Wait. 135 00:18:40,911 --> 00:18:43,027 - The baby. - What? The baby. 136 00:18:43,122 --> 00:18:44,282 Yes. 137 00:18:45,666 --> 00:18:47,873 - Wait a second. - Mama, mama. 138 00:19:13,903 --> 00:19:15,939 Oh! It's okay? 139 00:19:16,030 --> 00:19:18,772 Okay, sorry, I walked too fast. 140 00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:38,715 Okay. 141 00:19:41,472 --> 00:19:42,928 More? 142 00:19:45,226 --> 00:19:47,387 Elisa, don't be angry. 143 00:19:47,478 --> 00:19:49,434 I am angry. 144 00:19:50,189 --> 00:19:52,430 Go hug Anna. 145 00:19:58,698 --> 00:20:00,359 She is jealous... 146 00:20:00,449 --> 00:20:04,112 She's angry 'cause Anna doesn't want to give her the bubbles. 147 00:20:04,203 --> 00:20:06,194 Anna, give her the bubbles. 148 00:20:11,460 --> 00:20:13,746 Deedee. 149 00:20:13,838 --> 00:20:15,374 So fancy. 150 00:20:15,464 --> 00:20:17,250 What do you think? 151 00:20:27,768 --> 00:20:29,679 Deedee. 152 00:21:46,138 --> 00:21:49,221 Deedee, do you want to go get ice cream? 153 00:23:06,427 --> 00:23:07,837 Ahh! 154 00:23:07,928 --> 00:23:10,169 - Ciao. - What's happening? 155 00:23:11,390 --> 00:23:14,052 Oh my god, you look so good! 156 00:23:14,143 --> 00:23:16,634 Where have you been, what you did? 157 00:23:16,729 --> 00:23:19,345 - Gelato. - Gelato, fragola? 158 00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:20,440 Fragola. 159 00:23:22,776 --> 00:23:24,482 - Okay. - Okay. 160 00:23:24,570 --> 00:23:26,731 Lisa... Lisa cried? 161 00:23:26,822 --> 00:23:28,278 Lisa cried? 162 00:23:31,035 --> 00:23:32,650 Why Lisa cried? 163 00:23:32,745 --> 00:23:34,030 Oh my god. 164 00:23:34,121 --> 00:23:35,907 It's okay. 165 00:23:35,998 --> 00:23:37,579 We're gonna come back. 166 00:23:37,666 --> 00:23:40,624 Yes, we're gonna still play with her. 167 00:23:40,711 --> 00:23:42,952 I gotta do something real quick, okay? 168 00:23:43,047 --> 00:23:44,503 Yes. 169 00:23:47,676 --> 00:23:49,632 Let's wash our hands. 170 00:24:20,042 --> 00:24:22,408 Exterior: Snow country, day. 171 00:24:22,503 --> 00:24:25,791 Credits over wild winter landscape. 172 00:24:25,881 --> 00:24:28,623 When I had been pondering many things to myself 173 00:24:28,717 --> 00:24:31,174 for a long time and had for many days 174 00:24:31,261 --> 00:24:35,049 been seeking my own self and what my own good was 175 00:24:35,140 --> 00:24:37,756 and what evil was to be avoided, 176 00:24:37,851 --> 00:24:40,137 it suddenly spoke to me. 177 00:24:40,229 --> 00:24:41,435 What was it? 178 00:24:41,522 --> 00:24:43,934 I, myself, or someone else, 179 00:24:44,024 --> 00:24:46,606 inside or outside me. 180 00:24:46,694 --> 00:24:50,357 This is the very thing I would love to know 181 00:24:50,447 --> 00:24:51,857 but don't. 182 00:25:49,506 --> 00:25:51,713 Sexy, beautiful, stupid. 183 00:25:55,054 --> 00:25:59,844 It's important to find the gesture in an organic way, 184 00:26:01,268 --> 00:26:03,634 a simple way. 185 00:26:05,230 --> 00:26:07,687 I like this movement. 186 00:26:09,985 --> 00:26:11,270 Two... 187 00:26:13,197 --> 00:26:17,031 Go back to the circle. 188 00:26:17,117 --> 00:26:19,233 Three, keep going. 189 00:26:29,588 --> 00:26:31,920 I want to say, 190 00:26:32,007 --> 00:26:35,465 the idea is, these are all simple games, 191 00:26:35,552 --> 00:26:41,343 but I like very much the idea of distraction, 192 00:26:41,433 --> 00:26:44,470 the double... The double focus that you have, 193 00:26:44,561 --> 00:26:46,643 because you're all... for me, 194 00:26:46,730 --> 00:26:52,066 performing is always between control and abandon. 195 00:26:54,780 --> 00:26:59,365 Okay. Um, so when we do some of these distracting things, 196 00:26:59,451 --> 00:27:01,533 things that don't seem to go together, 197 00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:03,986 it makes you feel off-balance, 198 00:27:04,081 --> 00:27:05,867 but if you can relax in that state, 199 00:27:05,958 --> 00:27:07,949 it makes you more emotionally available. 200 00:27:15,425 --> 00:27:19,384 Your job is to approach that... that action that you know 201 00:27:19,471 --> 00:27:23,134 with a way that's not to show but to do, 202 00:27:23,225 --> 00:27:26,513 to do the action, do the action in a pure way, 203 00:27:26,603 --> 00:27:30,061 so the action is born, and when the action is born, 204 00:27:30,149 --> 00:27:31,514 you have a reaction to it, 205 00:27:31,608 --> 00:27:33,940 and that propels you to something. 206 00:27:34,027 --> 00:27:36,484 But it's sometimes imitated emotion 207 00:27:36,572 --> 00:27:37,812 or demonstrated emotion, 208 00:27:37,906 --> 00:27:40,397 not really felt emotion or experience. 209 00:27:40,492 --> 00:27:44,485 If you're only doing emotional things 210 00:27:44,580 --> 00:27:48,198 that you feel safe with, it's... it's for you. 211 00:27:48,292 --> 00:27:50,078 It's... you gotta go beyond yourself. 212 00:27:50,169 --> 00:27:51,955 Okay. We all know it in life. 213 00:27:52,045 --> 00:27:54,331 When we do things and we forget about ourselves 214 00:27:54,423 --> 00:27:58,166 and we're just doing the action in a pure way, 215 00:27:58,260 --> 00:28:02,674 that's when we get closer to experiencing, for me, 216 00:28:02,764 --> 00:28:04,300 the beauty of life. 217 00:28:47,935 --> 00:28:50,677 So I'm making this movie in Miami 218 00:28:50,771 --> 00:28:57,062 and I'm... I'm deep into using crack cocaine. 219 00:28:57,152 --> 00:28:59,313 I'm drinking, heroin. 220 00:28:59,404 --> 00:29:00,894 I'm out, I'm out. 221 00:29:00,989 --> 00:29:03,822 Hey! Good to see you. 222 00:29:03,909 --> 00:29:05,490 - Yeah, I'm good. - Good to see you. 223 00:29:05,577 --> 00:29:06,783 It's hot, but... 224 00:29:06,870 --> 00:29:08,110 Look at that fucking water. 225 00:29:09,039 --> 00:29:10,119 Like a beer. 226 00:29:10,207 --> 00:29:11,476 I'll see you down there in a minute. 227 00:29:11,500 --> 00:29:12,580 Yeah. 228 00:29:17,422 --> 00:29:22,837 You know, and we're making this movie in Miami 229 00:29:22,928 --> 00:29:26,420 at a time that Miami is, like, the nightlife is exploding, 230 00:29:26,515 --> 00:29:28,847 and just made a movie... 231 00:29:28,934 --> 00:29:31,016 I don't have my regular people with me. 232 00:29:31,103 --> 00:29:35,346 I gotta make a movie that's gonna be the first video... 233 00:29:35,440 --> 00:29:37,226 Movie shot with a video camera. 234 00:29:37,317 --> 00:29:40,309 I'm feeling really like it's... I'm it, you know, I'm... 235 00:29:40,404 --> 00:29:43,066 My ego is like, "I'm gonna do this thing," 236 00:29:43,156 --> 00:29:46,068 and not only... I'm gonna make a remake 237 00:29:46,159 --> 00:29:48,400 of la dolce vita. 238 00:29:48,495 --> 00:29:50,736 American remake, 239 00:29:50,831 --> 00:29:54,073 and I got this young Cuban actor 240 00:29:54,167 --> 00:29:57,705 and, uh, he's, uh, he's down with it 241 00:29:57,796 --> 00:30:01,584 and he's also... When I get there, you know, 242 00:30:01,675 --> 00:30:04,633 the guy's in rehab, but I'm good with that, 243 00:30:04,720 --> 00:30:07,211 and I just gotta get him out of rehab, and I do. 244 00:30:07,306 --> 00:30:10,594 I get him out of rehab. I remember I even, you know, 245 00:30:10,684 --> 00:30:12,800 bringing him stuff when he wasn't in rehab. 246 00:30:12,894 --> 00:30:17,103 He'd meet us outside... Outside the place, 247 00:30:17,190 --> 00:30:19,226 like middle of the night, it was crazy. 248 00:30:19,318 --> 00:30:20,933 But I needed this kid. 249 00:30:21,028 --> 00:30:24,862 And, uh, one day, I'm... I'm working on the set 250 00:30:24,948 --> 00:30:29,487 and I see this extra, this chick, she's good looking. 251 00:30:29,578 --> 00:30:31,409 You know, I shouldn't be messing with her, 252 00:30:31,496 --> 00:30:35,489 but I'm... I'm it, I'm having... I can do whatever I want, right? 253 00:30:35,584 --> 00:30:37,916 I'm feeling strong and I'm prancing. 254 00:30:38,003 --> 00:30:40,244 So I go out with her, we're out late, 255 00:30:40,339 --> 00:30:43,297 and I go to my friend's place that's got an all-night... 256 00:30:43,383 --> 00:30:46,420 It's like a diner, but it's a hip place, you know, 257 00:30:46,511 --> 00:30:49,378 it's like a cool, fancy place. 258 00:30:49,473 --> 00:30:53,933 I get in there, I lay some... A hundred dollar bill on the bar 259 00:30:54,019 --> 00:30:55,975 and I say, "hey, buy these guys a drink." 260 00:30:56,063 --> 00:30:59,351 I go in, go out with the owner of the place 261 00:30:59,441 --> 00:31:03,309 to do some stuff, and when I come back, 262 00:31:03,403 --> 00:31:05,689 the chick's not there. 263 00:31:05,781 --> 00:31:08,147 Uh, you know, 264 00:31:08,241 --> 00:31:10,152 she's gone, and the guy says, 265 00:31:10,243 --> 00:31:11,721 "hey, who's gonna pay for the drinks?" 266 00:31:11,745 --> 00:31:13,155 I said, "ll left a hundred.” 267 00:31:13,246 --> 00:31:15,862 He said, "no, no, I didn't see any hundred." 268 00:31:15,957 --> 00:31:18,539 So I'm really pissed, I get on the phone, 269 00:31:18,627 --> 00:31:21,243 and I get her number and I say, "you fucking bitch!" 270 00:31:21,338 --> 00:31:23,499 You know, really chew her out nasty, 271 00:31:23,590 --> 00:31:26,081 like mean, like crazy, like, you know, 272 00:31:26,176 --> 00:31:30,294 she betrayed this... this guy that was happening, you know. 273 00:31:30,389 --> 00:31:33,256 What I didn't know is this girl had a boyfriend, 274 00:31:33,350 --> 00:31:37,434 and her boyfriend was crazy about what she was doing 275 00:31:37,521 --> 00:31:41,013 with these movie people, and he was crazy jealous. 276 00:31:41,108 --> 00:31:44,475 She talked about, you know, being afraid of this guy. 277 00:31:44,569 --> 00:31:48,482 Well, I go back to my south beach motel, 278 00:31:48,573 --> 00:31:50,689 I forgot to double lock the door, 279 00:31:50,784 --> 00:31:54,402 and I think I'm dreaming, 280 00:31:54,496 --> 00:31:56,327 I go to bed and I think I'm dreaming 281 00:31:56,415 --> 00:31:58,622 that some guy's beating the shit out of me. 282 00:31:58,708 --> 00:32:02,200 Wailing away on me, just slamming me in the face. 283 00:32:02,295 --> 00:32:03,831 But I'm not dreaming. 284 00:32:03,922 --> 00:32:07,255 This guy came in, he's the boyfriend, 285 00:32:07,342 --> 00:32:09,754 he's fucking, you know, cursing me out 286 00:32:09,845 --> 00:32:13,008 about what I did to the girl, and he's beating me really bad. 287 00:32:13,098 --> 00:32:16,511 My face is all blown up, I mean, like this. 288 00:32:16,601 --> 00:32:21,766 The guy leaves, they grab me, bring me to the hospital, 289 00:32:21,857 --> 00:32:24,143 you know, nobody's there, I'm all alone, you know, 290 00:32:24,234 --> 00:32:27,567 and I'm messed up, and my ego is so crazy 291 00:32:27,654 --> 00:32:30,361 that I also think that they want to kill me, 292 00:32:30,449 --> 00:32:32,735 you know, I get these paranoid thoughts of... 293 00:32:32,826 --> 00:32:35,613 All I can think about is being safe. 294 00:32:35,704 --> 00:32:41,665 So, I... l hear that there's a rehab place 295 00:32:41,751 --> 00:32:43,742 in this hospital on the third floor, 296 00:32:43,837 --> 00:32:46,829 and it's kind of a lockdown, like, only family can come, 297 00:32:46,923 --> 00:32:50,165 so I go into rehab. 298 00:32:51,636 --> 00:32:54,799 But I have no intention of getting sober. 299 00:32:54,890 --> 00:32:57,882 None at all, I mean, this... All this shit happens. 300 00:32:57,976 --> 00:32:59,762 I almost die, you know. 301 00:32:59,853 --> 00:33:02,936 Still, I don't get the idea that, you know, 302 00:33:03,023 --> 00:33:04,729 what I'm doing is a problem. 303 00:33:04,816 --> 00:33:06,397 I'm still bigger than that, 304 00:33:06,485 --> 00:33:08,271 I'm still more important than that. 305 00:33:08,361 --> 00:33:10,147 It still isn't occurring to me. 306 00:33:10,238 --> 00:33:12,570 It fucking... It's hard to believe. 307 00:33:12,657 --> 00:33:15,273 I mean, this is 12 years before. 308 00:33:15,368 --> 00:33:16,699 So... 309 00:33:18,622 --> 00:33:20,112 You know, I go in this place, 310 00:33:20,207 --> 00:33:23,745 and I'm still using, and my dealer's coming. 311 00:33:23,835 --> 00:33:25,541 You know, my face starts to heal, 312 00:33:25,629 --> 00:33:28,587 and I'm feeling like I can do it again, 313 00:33:28,673 --> 00:33:34,669 so it's just, you know, amazing that it took me so long. 314 00:33:34,763 --> 00:33:39,132 I mean, yesterday was my birthday. 315 00:33:39,226 --> 00:33:41,091 It's been six years. 316 00:33:44,773 --> 00:33:46,980 And, you know, 317 00:33:47,067 --> 00:33:49,809 I want to thank everybody. 318 00:33:49,903 --> 00:33:53,145 Also, something magical happened, 319 00:33:53,240 --> 00:33:55,652 or at least for me it was magical, 320 00:33:55,742 --> 00:34:00,361 that last month, um, a guy came, 321 00:34:00,455 --> 00:34:04,664 he was a tourist from the states, 322 00:34:04,751 --> 00:34:07,493 and he came to the meeting, he came here, 323 00:34:07,587 --> 00:34:13,378 and afterwards, we were outside and he came up to me, 324 00:34:13,468 --> 00:34:17,427 and he said, you know, 325 00:34:17,514 --> 00:34:21,132 "I was... I was your doctor, I was your counselor 326 00:34:21,226 --> 00:34:24,844 in rehab in Miami, and, uh, 327 00:34:24,938 --> 00:34:28,556 I followed... l followed, uh... 328 00:34:28,650 --> 00:34:32,234 I followed your movies and I followed you, and I... 329 00:34:32,320 --> 00:34:35,904 I just want to say that, um, 330 00:34:35,991 --> 00:34:38,858 I'm happy to see you alive.” 331 00:34:38,952 --> 00:34:44,037 And I said, "thank you," and that was really beautiful. 332 00:34:44,124 --> 00:34:45,910 And thank you all. 333 00:34:53,758 --> 00:34:56,044 Okay, so the time's beaten us once again. 334 00:34:56,136 --> 00:34:58,798 Folks, we'll finish with the Serenity prayer. 335 00:35:05,353 --> 00:35:07,184 - God... - God... 336 00:35:07,272 --> 00:35:11,857 Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, 337 00:35:11,943 --> 00:35:14,275 the courage to change the things I can, 338 00:35:14,362 --> 00:35:16,523 and the wisdom to know the difference. 339 00:35:16,615 --> 00:35:18,981 Keep coming back, it works if you work it, 340 00:35:19,075 --> 00:35:20,690 so work it, you're worth it. 341 00:35:21,786 --> 00:35:23,242 Well done, man. Good job. 342 00:35:23,330 --> 00:35:24,866 Congratulations. 343 00:35:26,416 --> 00:35:27,576 Keep coming back. 344 00:35:27,667 --> 00:35:30,704 - Happy birthday, thanks. - Happy birthday. 345 00:35:30,795 --> 00:35:32,126 Hey. 346 00:35:34,507 --> 00:35:35,917 Hey. 347 00:35:52,859 --> 00:35:54,599 You're never gonna fall. 348 00:35:54,694 --> 00:35:56,650 Okay, we're here, we're here. 349 00:35:59,407 --> 00:36:00,567 Okay, okay. 350 00:36:00,659 --> 00:36:01,865 Goodnight, moon! 351 00:36:01,951 --> 00:36:03,987 Goodnight, we go to sleep! 352 00:36:10,085 --> 00:36:11,575 Okay. 353 00:38:26,221 --> 00:38:32,012 So you've been making speeches to the crowd in the piazza. 354 00:38:34,103 --> 00:38:36,435 I only told some people 355 00:38:36,523 --> 00:38:41,813 that the temple of old laws must fall 356 00:38:41,903 --> 00:38:45,646 and a new temple of truth should be built. 357 00:38:45,740 --> 00:38:47,321 But don't take me literally. 358 00:38:47,408 --> 00:38:51,321 I'm just trying to make myself understood. 359 00:38:51,412 --> 00:38:55,405 Why is someone like you upsetting the people? 360 00:38:55,500 --> 00:38:57,161 Why? 361 00:38:57,252 --> 00:39:00,494 You think you know the truth? 362 00:39:01,881 --> 00:39:03,712 What is truth? 363 00:39:07,971 --> 00:39:10,303 The truth is, 364 00:39:10,390 --> 00:39:11,721 you're in pain. 365 00:39:11,808 --> 00:39:13,093 You have a terrible headache 366 00:39:13,184 --> 00:39:15,800 and you're thinking of suicide. 367 00:39:16,813 --> 00:39:18,098 You can barely look at me. 368 00:39:18,189 --> 00:39:20,680 The way you look at me disturbs me. 369 00:39:20,775 --> 00:39:23,767 I don't want to be a torturer. 370 00:39:23,862 --> 00:39:28,322 But this feeling will go away. 371 00:39:28,408 --> 00:39:29,739 It will. 372 00:39:31,327 --> 00:39:33,113 It's going away. 373 00:39:37,792 --> 00:39:39,532 This feeling... 374 00:39:41,546 --> 00:39:43,286 It's going away. 375 00:39:43,381 --> 00:39:46,919 It is, it's going away. 376 00:39:48,344 --> 00:39:50,175 It's going away. 377 00:39:55,018 --> 00:39:58,806 You should go take a walk in the park. 378 00:39:58,897 --> 00:40:02,105 Totally up to you. I could come with you. 379 00:40:02,191 --> 00:40:05,058 You seem like an intelligent man. 380 00:40:07,113 --> 00:40:09,946 The trouble with you is your mind is closed. 381 00:40:10,033 --> 00:40:12,490 You lack empathy. 382 00:40:12,577 --> 00:40:15,034 You only care for your dog. 383 00:40:43,983 --> 00:40:47,100 Tell me, are you a doctor? 384 00:40:47,195 --> 00:40:50,653 No, I'm not a doctor. 385 00:40:50,740 --> 00:40:54,198 How do you know that I was thinking to pet my dog? 386 00:40:55,703 --> 00:40:58,615 Because you made a gesture 387 00:40:58,706 --> 00:41:01,539 as if to stroke something, 388 00:41:01,626 --> 00:41:03,412 and your lips... 389 00:41:06,297 --> 00:41:08,458 You are a doctor. 390 00:41:09,175 --> 00:41:11,040 No. 391 00:41:11,135 --> 00:41:13,171 I'm not a doctor. 392 00:42:46,856 --> 00:42:48,847 Ah, okay. 393 00:42:48,941 --> 00:42:50,897 You think it's too heavy for you? 394 00:42:50,985 --> 00:42:53,021 No, mama is gonna carry it. 395 00:42:53,112 --> 00:42:55,444 It's too heavy for you to take, I know. 396 00:42:57,325 --> 00:42:59,611 Okay, now... 397 00:43:01,537 --> 00:43:03,698 Tommaso? 398 00:43:03,790 --> 00:43:06,202 Yeah? We are about to leave. 399 00:43:06,292 --> 00:43:08,954 - You're going? - Yup. 400 00:43:09,045 --> 00:43:11,957 - Okay. - We're going to nonna's. 401 00:43:15,927 --> 00:43:18,088 You sure you don't want to come? 402 00:43:18,179 --> 00:43:19,794 You sure you don't want to come with us? 403 00:43:19,889 --> 00:43:21,720 No, I got... I got too much to do. 404 00:43:22,975 --> 00:43:24,511 - You know. - Come on, you... 405 00:43:24,602 --> 00:43:27,309 Let me call you a cab, okay? Did you call a cab? 406 00:43:27,396 --> 00:43:29,227 Oh, no, no, no, I'm gonna go with the Metro. 407 00:43:29,315 --> 00:43:30,851 No, no, no, it's too far. 408 00:43:30,942 --> 00:43:32,523 It's too far. Let me call. 409 00:43:32,610 --> 00:43:35,317 - No, no, listen... - No, it's too far for the baby, 410 00:43:35,404 --> 00:43:36,684 and that's a freaky neighborhood. 411 00:43:36,739 --> 00:43:38,900 I'm gonna take the Metro and I'm... 412 00:43:38,991 --> 00:43:41,277 - I'm calling a taxi. - No, please don't call it. 413 00:43:41,369 --> 00:43:42,484 Please. 414 00:43:43,746 --> 00:43:44,746 No, please. 415 00:43:47,875 --> 00:43:49,115 - No. - No, it's okay. 416 00:43:49,210 --> 00:43:50,575 No, I'm gonna take the Metro. 417 00:43:50,670 --> 00:43:52,456 - Are you kidding me? - Grazie. 418 00:43:52,547 --> 00:43:55,334 No, it's gonna... it's gonna come in just a little... 419 00:43:55,424 --> 00:43:57,756 - Give me some money, please. - Oh, okay, yeah. 420 00:43:57,844 --> 00:44:00,756 But I'm not gonna take the cab. 421 00:44:00,847 --> 00:44:03,634 I wanna take the Metro. It's cool. 422 00:44:03,724 --> 00:44:05,260 I'm really cool with that. 423 00:44:05,351 --> 00:44:06,966 - It's coming. - No, really. 424 00:44:07,061 --> 00:44:10,519 - I'm calling you a taxi. - Tommaso, don't do this to me. 425 00:44:10,606 --> 00:44:12,597 I'm really good with it. 426 00:44:53,441 --> 00:44:54,931 Wow, okay. 427 00:45:02,700 --> 00:45:04,315 Okay. 428 00:45:04,410 --> 00:45:06,150 Are you tired? 429 00:45:07,496 --> 00:45:09,987 Do we want to finish earlier? 430 00:45:10,082 --> 00:45:11,367 No... 431 00:45:11,459 --> 00:45:14,792 Earlier I had a fight with Nikki 432 00:45:14,879 --> 00:45:19,964 'cause she wanted to get the subway with the baby 433 00:45:20,051 --> 00:45:22,042 and I don't like that... 434 00:45:23,638 --> 00:45:25,299 It's hard, 435 00:45:26,432 --> 00:45:29,549 maybe it's my problem, but... 436 00:45:32,271 --> 00:45:36,264 Lately I believe 437 00:45:37,902 --> 00:45:41,895 that we should stay more relaxed. 438 00:45:41,989 --> 00:45:45,573 - Me? - In general, not you. 439 00:45:47,370 --> 00:45:49,986 I'm trying to learn... 440 00:45:53,668 --> 00:45:57,661 I've learned some breathing exercises. 441 00:45:58,798 --> 00:46:01,210 I can't do that. 442 00:46:01,300 --> 00:46:02,335 - You? - Tommaso, 443 00:46:02,426 --> 00:46:03,586 for me it's impossible. 444 00:46:03,678 --> 00:46:05,794 I can't do the breathing. 445 00:46:05,888 --> 00:46:07,594 Inhale in. 446 00:46:09,433 --> 00:46:14,018 Bring it down to that point of meeting down here. 447 00:46:17,525 --> 00:46:21,689 Switch, the other nostril, 448 00:46:21,779 --> 00:46:24,270 then bring the energy up. 449 00:46:27,868 --> 00:46:29,574 And then send it up 450 00:46:29,662 --> 00:46:32,199 through the crown of your head with your diaphragm. 451 00:46:32,290 --> 00:46:34,531 - Okay, we'll breathe together. - Mm-hmm. 452 00:46:40,047 --> 00:46:41,583 Hold. 453 00:46:49,098 --> 00:46:52,886 You stop the breath here. 454 00:46:53,769 --> 00:46:55,384 It's only... 455 00:47:00,484 --> 00:47:01,519 Okay. 456 00:47:04,071 --> 00:47:08,064 I must immediately find a meditation teacher, 457 00:47:08,159 --> 00:47:10,445 I must learn. 458 00:47:11,662 --> 00:47:13,448 When am I gonna see you? 459 00:47:15,833 --> 00:47:17,824 Friday, great. 460 00:47:17,918 --> 00:47:19,704 Have a good day. 461 00:48:49,844 --> 00:48:52,051 Nikki? Tommaso. 462 00:48:53,722 --> 00:48:56,088 - Yo. - Nikki, what... 463 00:48:56,183 --> 00:48:57,673 What? Why are you calling? 464 00:48:57,768 --> 00:48:59,349 L, you know, I've been calling you 465 00:48:59,437 --> 00:49:01,268 and you didn't pick up, what the fuck? 466 00:49:01,355 --> 00:49:02,765 I mean, come on. 467 00:49:02,857 --> 00:49:05,018 - What, what? - I've been trying to reach you, 468 00:49:05,109 --> 00:49:07,100 I've probably called you 50 times. 469 00:49:07,194 --> 00:49:09,526 Il just forgot the charger of my phone, are you serious? 470 00:49:09,613 --> 00:49:11,695 Either you don't pick up or it goes to voice mail. 471 00:49:11,782 --> 00:49:13,238 What the fuck? I mean, I worry. 472 00:49:13,325 --> 00:49:15,281 What if something happened to the baby? 473 00:49:15,369 --> 00:49:17,735 - It's not funny. - Well, you don't have to worry. 474 00:49:17,830 --> 00:49:20,367 You know, don't act like a fucking kid, you know? 475 00:49:20,458 --> 00:49:21,868 You got some responsibilities. 476 00:49:21,959 --> 00:49:24,416 I worry about, you know, I worry... 477 00:49:24,503 --> 00:49:27,336 So please, don't... Don't do that again, okay? 478 00:49:27,423 --> 00:49:29,209 Everything is fine, don't worry. 479 00:49:29,300 --> 00:49:31,632 - I just forgot the charger. - Okay, pick up next time. 480 00:49:31,719 --> 00:49:33,209 - Okay, okay. - Okay. 481 00:49:33,304 --> 00:49:34,965 Ciao, ciao. =ciao. 482 00:49:37,141 --> 00:49:38,802 My wife... 483 00:49:40,102 --> 00:49:45,313 She left the phone charger at home 484 00:49:45,399 --> 00:49:48,141 and it's been impossible to reach her. 485 00:49:48,235 --> 00:49:50,442 She is with the baby, 486 00:49:51,322 --> 00:49:52,937 I started worrying, 487 00:49:53,032 --> 00:49:55,273 so I had to call my mother-in-law. 488 00:49:56,285 --> 00:49:58,241 You had to call all around. 489 00:50:00,206 --> 00:50:01,696 Okay. 490 00:51:20,828 --> 00:51:28,701 Lately, uh, with the mother of my baby girl, deedee, uh, 491 00:51:28,794 --> 00:51:32,286 I've had some problems because every time 492 00:51:32,381 --> 00:51:36,750 I try to extend myself to her, do things for her, 493 00:51:36,844 --> 00:51:38,584 she really pushes me away. 494 00:51:38,679 --> 00:51:40,840 She's, like, got issues. 495 00:51:40,931 --> 00:51:47,143 She... she's younger than me, she's, uh, 29. 496 00:51:47,229 --> 00:51:50,346 You'd think she would appreciate my experience. 497 00:51:51,525 --> 00:51:53,390 But, you know, sometimes, she... 498 00:51:53,485 --> 00:51:56,101 She just says, "oh, let me make my own decision up. 499 00:51:56,196 --> 00:51:58,733 I don't know who I am if I don't make a decision." 500 00:51:58,824 --> 00:52:00,439 And I'm telling you, this goes down 501 00:52:00,534 --> 00:52:03,822 to just very simple things, you know, like what food to eat 502 00:52:03,912 --> 00:52:06,995 or whether to take a taxi or the subway, 503 00:52:07,082 --> 00:52:08,822 or these kinds of things, 504 00:52:08,917 --> 00:52:12,751 and it... it really robs me of, um, 505 00:52:12,838 --> 00:52:15,955 feeling good like I'm taking care of her. 506 00:52:23,515 --> 00:52:27,474 I do know, you know, she has a strange relationship... 507 00:52:27,561 --> 00:52:29,301 Well, a rough relationship with her father 508 00:52:29,396 --> 00:52:31,512 because he was an alcoholic 509 00:52:31,607 --> 00:52:33,768 and a bad Russian drunk. 510 00:52:33,859 --> 00:52:36,896 Vodka, you know, he was abusive with the mother. 511 00:52:36,987 --> 00:52:38,943 Eventually, she kicked her out 512 00:52:39,031 --> 00:52:43,024 and he left when she was only four years old. 513 00:52:43,118 --> 00:52:47,987 And then, uh, things started to change in the eastern bloc, 514 00:52:48,082 --> 00:52:50,323 and her mother and then her sister went to Moscow 515 00:52:50,417 --> 00:52:52,829 and she got passed around with family and... 516 00:52:52,920 --> 00:52:54,330 And other people. 517 00:52:54,421 --> 00:52:56,161 Um, that's where she lived. 518 00:52:56,256 --> 00:52:58,292 So she grew up very independent. 519 00:52:58,384 --> 00:53:00,375 So she did learn to be self-reliant, 520 00:53:00,469 --> 00:53:03,051 but at the same time, she had these unresolved issues 521 00:53:03,138 --> 00:53:06,175 with her father because she also romanticizes him. 522 00:53:06,266 --> 00:53:08,302 She still wants to talk to him, 523 00:53:08,394 --> 00:53:09,850 but he won't talk to her. 524 00:53:09,937 --> 00:53:11,802 He still is around somewhere, 525 00:53:11,897 --> 00:53:14,104 he's still an alcoholic. 526 00:53:14,191 --> 00:53:16,022 You know. 527 00:53:16,110 --> 00:53:18,977 So that's a little hard to take. 528 00:53:19,071 --> 00:53:23,485 You know, I'm haunted a little bit by the fact that... 529 00:53:23,575 --> 00:53:26,362 My... my deedee is three years old, 530 00:53:26,453 --> 00:53:33,325 and when... when I wasn't sober, 531 00:53:33,419 --> 00:53:38,163 I had two adopted children, 532 00:53:38,257 --> 00:53:41,920 and I was not... 533 00:53:42,010 --> 00:53:45,252 I left when, uh... 534 00:53:45,347 --> 00:53:49,932 I basically left, I wasn't there because I wasn't sober, 535 00:53:50,018 --> 00:53:52,134 when my youngest was four years old, 536 00:53:52,229 --> 00:53:56,518 and I think she, you know, it really destroyed her, 537 00:53:56,608 --> 00:53:59,350 and I don't want that to happen again. 538 00:53:59,445 --> 00:54:03,404 I'm sober now, and, uh, 539 00:54:03,490 --> 00:54:06,357 I'm so afraid of it, but I don't know how to do 540 00:54:06,452 --> 00:54:10,741 because I try to take care, and every time I do, you know, 541 00:54:10,831 --> 00:54:16,952 it's like there's no recognition that, um, that... 542 00:54:17,045 --> 00:54:21,084 Even like the idea that the baby needs a father 543 00:54:21,175 --> 00:54:25,418 is like an oppressive or, you know... 544 00:54:25,512 --> 00:54:29,425 She doesn't think that's necessarily true, 545 00:54:29,516 --> 00:54:33,555 and for me, it's essential because it breaks my heart. 546 00:54:33,645 --> 00:54:36,808 I remember the four-year-old, right before I left, 547 00:54:36,899 --> 00:54:39,766 she said to me, uh, 548 00:54:39,860 --> 00:54:44,069 "are you leaving because I make too much noise?" 549 00:54:44,156 --> 00:54:46,112 And the truth is, she was the quietest, 550 00:54:46,200 --> 00:54:48,111 sweetest girl in the world, 551 00:54:48,202 --> 00:54:50,488 so that... That always stays with me, 552 00:54:50,579 --> 00:54:55,198 and I just don't want that to happen again, and I'm... 553 00:54:55,292 --> 00:54:57,374 I'm happy about a lot of things. 554 00:54:57,461 --> 00:55:00,453 I'm happy that I'm sober, but, uh, 555 00:55:00,547 --> 00:55:03,289 this is something that I'm dealing with right now. 556 00:55:03,383 --> 00:55:04,964 - Thanks, Tommy. - Thanks, Tommy. 557 00:55:06,762 --> 00:55:08,548 Yeah, I'm diedre, an addict. 558 00:55:08,639 --> 00:55:10,550 - Hi, diedre. - Hi, diedre. 559 00:55:10,641 --> 00:55:14,930 Uh, related a lot to what I just heard. 560 00:55:15,020 --> 00:55:17,932 I feel like being in a partnership 561 00:55:18,023 --> 00:55:22,608 and parenting in a partnership can be so challenging for me. 562 00:55:22,694 --> 00:55:26,278 Um, I mean, it says in our literature, 563 00:55:26,365 --> 00:55:30,278 it is, like, impossible for us 564 00:55:30,369 --> 00:55:33,156 to form a true partnership with another human being. 565 00:55:33,247 --> 00:55:36,330 I mean, that says it all. 566 00:55:36,416 --> 00:55:38,748 Um... 567 00:55:38,836 --> 00:55:40,747 Because, like, I've, you know... 568 00:55:40,838 --> 00:55:42,829 Like, we don't have relationships, 569 00:55:42,923 --> 00:55:44,504 we take hostages, right? 570 00:55:44,591 --> 00:55:45,591 So like... 571 00:55:46,927 --> 00:55:49,259 Like, we're either, like, dominating 572 00:55:49,346 --> 00:55:51,007 or we're completely underneath. 573 00:55:51,098 --> 00:55:54,716 Like, there's not the, just, the equality, 574 00:55:54,810 --> 00:55:56,766 you know, and I... 575 00:55:56,854 --> 00:55:58,936 I always... l always know 576 00:55:59,022 --> 00:56:02,185 my partner's inventory better than he does. 577 00:56:02,276 --> 00:56:05,518 Like, I always know exactly what's wrong with him, 578 00:56:05,612 --> 00:56:09,446 what he's gotta do, his past, his psychology, everything, 579 00:56:09,533 --> 00:56:11,694 you know what I mean, and the thing is is that 580 00:56:11,785 --> 00:56:14,117 this program teaches me to, 581 00:56:14,204 --> 00:56:16,160 like, stick to my side of the street. 582 00:56:16,248 --> 00:56:19,615 I have to look at what my part is, 583 00:56:19,710 --> 00:56:22,417 what I do, and, you know, 584 00:56:22,504 --> 00:56:24,790 as soon as I'm pointing a finger, 585 00:56:24,882 --> 00:56:28,124 like, it's... I've gotta look at myself. 586 00:56:28,218 --> 00:56:30,755 So, anyway, I'm super grateful. 587 00:56:30,846 --> 00:56:31,961 I pass. 588 00:56:32,055 --> 00:56:34,296 Thanks, diedre. 589 00:56:41,148 --> 00:56:42,763 All the best. 590 00:56:42,858 --> 00:56:44,143 Take it easy, guys. 591 00:56:44,234 --> 00:56:46,190 Okay, guys, I'm off, I'm really hungry. 592 00:56:46,278 --> 00:56:48,298 I have to get something to eat, so I'll see you later. 593 00:56:48,322 --> 00:56:50,108 All right, all the best. Ciao. Take it easy. 594 00:56:50,198 --> 00:56:51,404 - Bye. - All the best. Ciao. 595 00:56:51,491 --> 00:56:52,776 Ciao. I'm giving you two. 596 00:56:52,868 --> 00:56:54,608 Yeah, I should probably get going too. 597 00:56:54,703 --> 00:56:55,943 Okay, yeah, all right. 598 00:56:56,038 --> 00:56:57,198 - Love you. - Goodnight. 599 00:56:57,289 --> 00:56:58,825 - Okay, love you, sweetie. - Bye. 600 00:56:58,916 --> 00:57:00,656 - Great to see you. - Yeah, same. 601 00:57:00,751 --> 00:57:01,769 - We'll talk later. - Okay. 602 00:57:01,793 --> 00:57:03,283 - Bye. - Ciao. 603 00:57:04,463 --> 00:57:06,795 Hmm, all right, I'm... 604 00:57:06,882 --> 00:57:08,463 Yeah, I walk that way. 605 00:57:08,550 --> 00:57:09,756 Oh. 606 00:57:17,017 --> 00:57:18,473 So... 607 00:57:20,354 --> 00:57:22,265 Are you around for a while? 608 00:57:22,356 --> 00:57:23,846 Yeah, I'm here for the summer. 609 00:57:23,941 --> 00:57:25,397 You are, you're not going anywhere? 610 00:57:25,484 --> 00:57:27,099 No. Yeah? 611 00:57:27,194 --> 00:57:30,106 No, I usually like to travel when it's not so crowded. 612 00:57:30,197 --> 00:57:31,858 - Smart idea. - Yeah. 613 00:57:31,949 --> 00:57:35,032 I don't get this Italian thing of everybody leaving at... 614 00:57:35,118 --> 00:57:38,406 Yeah, exactly, and being, like, all packed on the beach. 615 00:57:38,497 --> 00:57:39,497 I get it, but... 616 00:57:39,581 --> 00:57:40,901 - I don't get it. - What a drag. 617 00:57:40,958 --> 00:57:42,289 I mean, I get how it happens. 618 00:57:42,376 --> 00:57:44,241 Right, right, right, yeah, yeah. 619 00:57:44,336 --> 00:57:46,327 School holidays, whatever. 620 00:57:46,421 --> 00:57:50,539 No, I have the luxury of traveling off-season, 621 00:57:50,634 --> 00:57:52,875 so I usually take advantage of that. 622 00:57:52,970 --> 00:57:54,835 Do you usually go by yourself? 623 00:57:54,930 --> 00:57:56,295 Um, it depends, actually... 624 00:57:56,390 --> 00:57:59,382 - With friends? - No, I usually go by myself. 625 00:57:59,476 --> 00:58:01,307 You were with that guy for a little while. 626 00:58:01,395 --> 00:58:03,135 Are you still with him? Mmm... 627 00:58:03,230 --> 00:58:04,310 No, no? 628 00:58:06,483 --> 00:58:08,144 Um... no. 629 00:58:08,235 --> 00:58:09,395 No, that's finished. 630 00:58:09,486 --> 00:58:10,896 How long ago was that? 631 00:58:10,988 --> 00:58:12,899 Well, it was on and off for like six years, 632 00:58:12,990 --> 00:58:16,198 but finally finished like about a year and a half ago. 633 00:58:16,284 --> 00:58:18,320 I'll... I'll walk you. 634 00:58:18,412 --> 00:58:19,618 Okay. 635 00:58:19,705 --> 00:58:21,161 - Okay? - Yeah. 636 00:58:21,248 --> 00:58:22,408 Thanks. 637 00:58:23,709 --> 00:58:25,040 How long ago? 638 00:58:25,127 --> 00:58:27,584 - About a year and a half ago. - Oh, okay. 639 00:58:30,966 --> 00:58:34,049 And how has that been, like, being alone again? 640 00:58:34,136 --> 00:58:35,251 Good? 641 00:58:35,345 --> 00:58:36,835 Hmm, yes. 642 00:58:36,930 --> 00:58:39,262 - Do you like being alone? - Actually, yes. 643 00:58:39,349 --> 00:58:40,634 Yeah? 644 00:58:40,726 --> 00:58:43,809 At first it was, you know... 645 00:58:43,895 --> 00:58:47,058 Well, at first I was just bummed out 646 00:58:47,149 --> 00:58:49,105 because we tried on and off for so long, 647 00:58:49,192 --> 00:58:53,105 but now I'm pretty happily single, you know. 648 00:58:53,196 --> 00:58:55,812 In fact, I was just talking to a friend of mine 649 00:58:55,907 --> 00:58:58,239 about how much I love sleeping alone. 650 00:58:58,326 --> 00:59:00,533 It's like heaven. 651 00:59:00,620 --> 00:59:03,362 - A whole bed to myself. - Oh, god! 652 00:59:03,457 --> 00:59:06,073 Not me, I think I've always been with someone. 653 00:59:06,168 --> 00:59:08,534 - Oh, really? - Yeah, yeah. 654 00:59:08,628 --> 00:59:11,791 But, I don't know, I never had the opportunity to sleep alone, 655 00:59:11,882 --> 00:59:16,672 I think, so this is my... My first big run of... 656 00:59:16,762 --> 00:59:18,593 - Enjoying yourself. - Hogging the bed. 657 00:59:20,557 --> 00:59:23,720 You just need a big bed so you have some choices. 658 00:59:25,145 --> 00:59:26,555 You know. 659 00:59:26,646 --> 00:59:29,228 - Right? - Uh, yeah. 660 00:59:29,316 --> 00:59:31,398 That's what I like. I like a nice, big bed. 661 00:59:31,485 --> 00:59:33,726 We're gonna need a bigger bed, it's like... 662 00:59:37,908 --> 00:59:39,864 Hmm. 663 00:59:39,951 --> 00:59:42,033 Well... - Okay, um... 664 00:59:42,120 --> 00:59:44,702 - This is me. - Yeah, I know, I know. 665 00:59:44,790 --> 00:59:46,621 Okay, well, have a good night, huh? 666 00:59:46,708 --> 00:59:48,573 Thank you. You too. 667 00:59:48,668 --> 00:59:50,909 Thanks for walking me home, and, um, 668 00:59:51,004 --> 00:59:53,461 happy six years. 669 00:59:53,548 --> 00:59:54,833 - Thank you. - That's awesome. 670 00:59:54,925 --> 00:59:56,381 - Thank you. - Yeah, okay. 671 00:59:56,468 --> 00:59:58,174 Okay. 672 00:59:58,261 --> 01:00:01,628 - Make sure you get in. - Thank you. 673 01:00:02,974 --> 01:00:04,680 - Okay, yeah, goodnight. - Goodnight. 674 01:00:04,768 --> 01:00:07,100 Sleep well. You too. Thanks. 675 01:01:43,783 --> 01:01:45,193 Oh! 676 01:01:49,581 --> 01:01:51,287 Hey! 677 01:01:56,546 --> 01:01:57,546 Hey! 678 01:01:58,798 --> 01:02:00,004 Hey! 679 01:02:00,091 --> 01:02:02,002 - How are you? - Hey. 680 01:02:02,093 --> 01:02:05,210 Good? Yeah? Was it fun? 681 01:02:05,305 --> 01:02:07,842 Yeah, it's... it's fun. 682 01:02:07,933 --> 01:02:09,673 I missed you guys. 683 01:02:11,311 --> 01:02:14,053 - Okay? - Yes. 684 01:02:15,815 --> 01:02:19,307 We had a great time. 685 01:02:19,402 --> 01:02:22,235 Umbrella? Yeah, take the umbrella. 686 01:02:22,322 --> 01:02:25,780 Take the other shoe. Okay, honey. 687 01:02:25,867 --> 01:02:27,403 Okay. 688 01:02:28,662 --> 01:02:30,402 But it was good? 689 01:02:30,497 --> 01:02:33,455 You know, it's always good, you know. 690 01:02:33,541 --> 01:02:36,829 She has this big garden, big things, 691 01:02:36,920 --> 01:02:41,380 and she plays with it, and it's really nice. 692 01:02:41,466 --> 01:02:43,002 I missed you, huh? 693 01:02:47,639 --> 01:02:48,970 Really? 694 01:02:49,057 --> 01:02:50,888 Yeah. 695 01:02:50,976 --> 01:02:54,434 - Really? - Yeah, yeah! 696 01:02:54,521 --> 01:02:56,261 Well, I don't believe it. 697 01:02:56,356 --> 01:02:57,812 You don't? =no. 698 01:02:57,899 --> 01:03:00,436 - Okay. - You look too good to miss me. 699 01:03:02,487 --> 01:03:03,818 Okay? 700 01:03:05,115 --> 01:03:07,231 So, what's going on here? 701 01:03:07,325 --> 01:03:08,690 I've just been working. 702 01:03:08,785 --> 01:03:10,992 I've just been working, you know? 703 01:03:11,079 --> 01:03:12,910 I'm trying to do this crazy thing 704 01:03:12,998 --> 01:03:15,910 about these, um, scehes with the bear. 705 01:03:16,001 --> 01:03:18,117 And? 706 01:03:18,211 --> 01:03:20,623 I don't know, 'cause you don't want it to be, like, 707 01:03:20,714 --> 01:03:22,545 you know, like a big special effects thing, 708 01:03:22,632 --> 01:03:25,920 but I want the scariness of the bear in there, so... 709 01:03:30,223 --> 01:03:31,884 Clint puts down bar rag 710 01:03:31,975 --> 01:03:34,591 and comes around bar to get a closer look. 711 01:03:34,686 --> 01:03:37,302 Numbers stop, and again, it's a loss. 712 01:03:37,397 --> 01:03:39,638 Woodsman turns to Clint, only this time, 713 01:03:39,733 --> 01:03:43,396 it is the head of a bear in the clothes of the woodsman. 714 01:03:43,486 --> 01:03:45,647 Clint, with no Mitchell in sight, 715 01:03:45,739 --> 01:03:49,527 is in bloody, violent, and extended fight for his life. 716 01:03:50,952 --> 01:03:53,113 Dogs outside going wild. 717 01:04:59,604 --> 01:05:02,016 - You're eating? - Yes. 718 01:05:02,107 --> 01:05:04,348 Why didn't you call me? 719 01:05:04,442 --> 01:05:07,229 I thought... I thought you already ate. 720 01:05:07,320 --> 01:05:08,480 No. 721 01:05:08,571 --> 01:05:10,061 No? =no. 722 01:05:10,156 --> 01:05:12,192 - Why? - Why didn't you call me? 723 01:05:12,283 --> 01:05:14,569 But why you didn't eat yet? 724 01:05:14,661 --> 01:05:18,153 You know, it's fucking... It's thoughtless. 725 01:05:18,248 --> 01:05:20,785 Come on, I waited... You know, I... 726 01:05:20,875 --> 01:05:23,332 I missed... I sat around all yesterday, 727 01:05:23,420 --> 01:05:25,832 and I made my own dinner, then you make food, 728 01:05:25,922 --> 01:05:27,412 you don't even call me. 729 01:05:27,507 --> 01:05:29,168 I've been waiting to have lunch. 730 01:05:29,259 --> 01:05:31,170 Why you... Why you gotta wait for me? 731 01:05:31,261 --> 01:05:32,671 Why you gotta wait for me? 732 01:05:32,762 --> 01:05:34,468 You can cook, you are an adult. 733 01:05:34,556 --> 01:05:37,093 I know, okay, okay, I can cook and I will cook. 734 01:05:37,183 --> 01:05:38,593 I'll cook my own stuff. 735 01:05:38,685 --> 01:05:42,598 Jesus Christ, do you know, I waited for you. 736 01:05:42,689 --> 01:05:46,181 - You know, I wait for you... - No, no, come on... 737 01:05:46,276 --> 01:05:49,313 No, it just bugs me because it's inconsiderate. 738 01:05:49,404 --> 01:05:52,111 I like to eat with you and the baby. 739 01:05:52,198 --> 01:05:53,358 Oh, come on. 740 01:05:53,450 --> 01:05:56,442 What do you mean, "oh, come on"? 741 01:05:56,536 --> 01:05:57,696 What do you mean? 742 01:05:58,872 --> 01:06:00,112 Yeah, laugh, you know, 743 01:06:00,206 --> 01:06:02,117 you laugh when you know you're full of shit. 744 01:06:02,208 --> 01:06:04,950 That's what happens. Can I have at least the freedom 745 01:06:05,044 --> 01:06:08,787 to eat when I want and with who I want 746 01:06:08,882 --> 01:06:11,749 and without busting my balls and blah-blah-blah? 747 01:06:11,843 --> 01:06:14,755 Okay, I don't mean to bust your balls, believe me. 748 01:06:14,846 --> 01:06:18,088 I just try to take care, it's all a little silly, you know? 749 01:06:18,183 --> 01:06:21,095 You talk a lot of shit, you know, you talk a lot of... 750 01:06:22,437 --> 01:06:24,894 Hippie shit. 751 01:06:24,981 --> 01:06:27,393 - Oh my god. - Why don't you make it for me? 752 01:06:27,484 --> 01:06:29,600 I mean, I'm trying to work. 753 01:06:29,694 --> 01:06:31,150 - Really? - I make it for you. 754 01:06:31,237 --> 01:06:33,523 It's just... it's just common consideration. 755 01:06:33,615 --> 01:06:35,276 Really, I thought you already had. 756 01:06:35,366 --> 01:06:38,733 Being a family, being a couple, you know, 757 01:06:38,828 --> 01:06:40,819 loving someone is being present. 758 01:06:40,914 --> 01:06:42,620 It's about... It's about attention, 759 01:06:42,707 --> 01:06:46,370 it's about... it's about, you know, taking care. 760 01:06:46,461 --> 01:06:48,543 I'm trying to do my thing. 761 01:06:49,964 --> 01:06:51,579 - And... - What is your thing? 762 01:06:51,674 --> 01:06:53,585 - My thing? - Yeah, what is your thing? 763 01:06:55,094 --> 01:06:57,085 "It's your thing, do what you wanna do, 764 01:06:57,180 --> 01:07:00,217 I can't tell you who to sock it to." 765 01:07:00,308 --> 01:07:04,301 Oh, come on. To do what I want, when I want, 766 01:07:04,395 --> 01:07:09,059 everything that I really want, without explaining to somebody... 767 01:07:09,150 --> 01:07:11,812 So I have two children now? 768 01:08:36,362 --> 01:08:38,102 Start your story. 769 01:08:42,368 --> 01:08:44,734 Once I met a boy. 770 01:08:46,372 --> 01:08:48,579 I liked his eyes. 771 01:08:51,544 --> 01:08:54,536 His eyes and his mouth. 772 01:08:56,799 --> 01:08:59,506 I liked his mouth, it was big. 773 01:09:00,845 --> 01:09:02,301 Beautiful. 774 01:09:04,557 --> 01:09:08,470 I remember he started hugging and kissing me. 775 01:09:10,897 --> 01:09:12,933 I fell in love immediately. 776 01:09:19,155 --> 01:09:22,989 I liked his eyes, his smell... 777 01:10:50,872 --> 01:10:53,238 Okay? Don't worry. 778 01:10:56,294 --> 01:10:57,329 Mama? 779 01:11:02,550 --> 01:11:03,915 Mama, mama? 780 01:11:04,010 --> 01:11:06,217 You know what, I'm gonna go down there. 781 01:11:06,304 --> 01:11:09,171 - Okay? - It's okay, it's okay. 782 01:11:09,265 --> 01:11:11,972 Everything gonna be okay. 783 01:11:24,322 --> 01:11:28,031 Shut up! You're making us crazy. 784 01:11:32,246 --> 01:11:35,488 Somebody call the police! 785 01:11:38,503 --> 01:11:41,916 If you don't stop, I'll come and punch you. 786 01:11:46,844 --> 01:11:49,176 You know, he's freaking out the baby. 787 01:11:49,263 --> 01:11:51,345 I know, I know, I know, I know. 788 01:11:51,432 --> 01:11:53,343 Just... yeah, but just be careful. 789 01:11:53,434 --> 01:11:55,114 - Listen, be careful. - Yeah, yeah, I know. 790 01:11:55,144 --> 01:11:57,351 You know, with these guys, you never know. 791 01:12:25,550 --> 01:12:26,630 Yo! 792 01:12:29,512 --> 01:12:30,843 Stop it! 793 01:12:36,727 --> 01:12:39,639 You are scaring my baby! 794 01:12:41,065 --> 01:12:43,522 Stop it! Shut up! 795 01:12:43,609 --> 01:12:46,225 - Motherfucker. - Get outta here! 796 01:12:46,320 --> 01:12:49,608 - You speak english? - I don't speak english but I... 797 01:12:51,158 --> 01:12:53,615 Get the fuck outta here, get the fuck outta here. 798 01:12:53,703 --> 01:12:55,409 Get outta here! 799 01:12:56,581 --> 01:12:57,991 Fucking bloody... 800 01:12:58,082 --> 01:13:01,916 Get your shit outta here, come on, go! 801 01:13:03,754 --> 01:13:05,357 - I'll destroy you. - Yeah, okay, okay, okay. 802 01:13:05,381 --> 01:13:08,589 Yeah, you're gonna do it? Get outta here, get outta here. 803 01:13:08,676 --> 01:13:10,212 Just get out. 804 01:13:10,303 --> 01:13:12,009 Beat it, beat it. 805 01:13:12,096 --> 01:13:14,212 Come on, be on your way. 806 01:13:14,307 --> 01:13:17,049 Take your food with you. Go. 807 01:13:17,143 --> 01:13:18,883 Oh, my baby, she can't sleep, 808 01:13:18,978 --> 01:13:20,809 you're scaring the shit out of her. 809 01:13:20,897 --> 01:13:22,762 Where is it? 810 01:13:22,857 --> 01:13:24,563 Your baby is sleeping? 811 01:13:24,650 --> 01:13:26,481 Upstairs, upstairs. 812 01:13:26,569 --> 01:13:28,434 So I'm making bothering with you? 813 01:13:28,529 --> 01:13:30,235 You're bothering me. 814 01:13:30,323 --> 01:13:32,985 - It's true? - Yeah, it's true, it's true. 815 01:13:33,075 --> 01:13:34,565 Keeping... 816 01:13:34,660 --> 01:13:36,070 - Yeah. - No anything. 817 01:13:36,162 --> 01:13:37,197 Okay. 818 01:13:38,623 --> 01:13:40,363 We maybe compromises. 819 01:13:40,458 --> 01:13:44,167 Okay, you can sit down, but no more, okay? 820 01:13:44,253 --> 01:13:45,584 Yeah. 821 01:13:45,671 --> 01:13:47,912 I don't want to bother you. 822 01:13:48,007 --> 01:13:49,372 Good. 823 01:13:49,467 --> 01:13:52,004 You're a nice person, give me some coins? 824 01:13:53,471 --> 01:13:55,382 Yeah, I can give you some coins. 825 01:13:56,933 --> 01:13:59,720 Where you come from? 826 01:13:59,810 --> 01:14:01,346 The states. 827 01:14:01,437 --> 01:14:03,678 Which part of states? 828 01:14:03,773 --> 01:14:05,013 New York. 829 01:14:05,107 --> 01:14:06,847 - New York. - How about you? 830 01:14:06,943 --> 01:14:11,733 All of my friends live in here, here, just near here. 831 01:14:11,822 --> 01:14:13,153 They came from New York. 832 01:14:13,240 --> 01:14:15,196 Where are you from? 833 01:14:15,284 --> 01:14:17,275 Pakistan. Pakistan? 834 01:14:17,370 --> 01:14:18,655 You know where it is? 835 01:14:18,746 --> 01:14:20,202 I've heard of it. 836 01:14:23,459 --> 01:14:25,199 They are all bullshit. 837 01:14:26,963 --> 01:14:28,453 I know, I know, I know. 838 01:14:38,724 --> 01:14:40,715 Okay, okay, okay. 839 01:14:42,478 --> 01:14:44,139 Fuckin' hell. 840 01:14:49,276 --> 01:14:52,768 That's... that stuff's poison, you know that. 841 01:14:54,156 --> 01:14:55,942 - Enjoy yourself. - Okay. 842 01:14:56,033 --> 01:14:58,570 - Have a good night. - Yes, to you. 843 01:14:59,453 --> 01:15:01,159 See you the next time. 844 01:15:01,247 --> 01:15:03,112 Okay, good luck. 845 01:15:05,042 --> 01:15:06,248 Okay. 846 01:15:10,464 --> 01:15:11,795 Okay. 847 01:15:14,719 --> 01:15:16,004 Goodnight. 848 01:15:19,140 --> 01:15:20,505 Just go. 849 01:15:20,599 --> 01:15:22,214 You're good. 850 01:18:05,973 --> 01:18:07,463 Deedee! 851 01:19:21,423 --> 01:19:25,587 Anybody have a story? Raise your hand if you do. 852 01:19:27,972 --> 01:19:29,963 Okay. 853 01:19:30,057 --> 01:19:33,675 I left home when I was 19 854 01:19:34,895 --> 01:19:38,137 and I moved abroad. 855 01:19:39,942 --> 01:19:42,604 Where? - Dubai, in the Emirates. 856 01:19:43,529 --> 01:19:46,020 Good, do it again. 857 01:19:47,324 --> 01:19:50,157 Do the same movements, 858 01:19:50,244 --> 01:19:54,362 but this time tell the whole story. 859 01:19:54,456 --> 01:19:56,868 Now I'm going, I don't care where, 860 01:19:56,959 --> 01:20:00,998 the important thing is that I go far from my family. 861 01:20:02,589 --> 01:20:06,332 I will choose the first place that wants me 862 01:20:06,427 --> 01:20:07,883 and I'll go there. 863 01:20:08,887 --> 01:20:11,754 I'm here, I'm here in Dubai. 864 01:20:14,351 --> 01:20:19,141 I really wanted to come here because I thought 865 01:20:19,231 --> 01:20:23,224 I could find something here that I couldn't find there. 866 01:20:23,319 --> 01:20:25,605 But here there's nothing at all. 867 01:20:26,530 --> 01:20:28,395 So where is he now? 868 01:20:30,117 --> 01:20:32,358 I don't know. 869 01:20:32,453 --> 01:20:35,411 You don't... But he just wrote you, right? 870 01:20:37,958 --> 01:20:40,199 He sent you an email. 871 01:20:40,294 --> 01:20:45,004 Yeah, he sent me some emails during those three years... 872 01:20:45,090 --> 01:20:49,174 Only... ahh, see, I thought he just sent you recently. 873 01:20:49,261 --> 01:20:51,377 No. =no? Oh. 874 01:20:51,472 --> 01:20:56,432 No, like, a few emails in three years... 875 01:20:56,518 --> 01:21:00,010 - Oh, that's terrible. - Are not enough for a father. 876 01:21:02,399 --> 01:21:05,562 So you're, you know, so you basically cut him off, 877 01:21:05,652 --> 01:21:06,892 you're angry because he... 878 01:21:06,987 --> 01:21:09,399 - Of course I am. - Yeah. 879 01:21:09,490 --> 01:21:12,607 He... he was everything for me. 880 01:21:12,701 --> 01:21:15,283 So he disappointed you. 881 01:21:15,371 --> 01:21:18,158 He... 882 01:21:18,248 --> 01:21:23,663 He was teaching me to believe in some values. 883 01:21:23,754 --> 01:21:25,369 Mm-hmm. 884 01:21:25,464 --> 01:21:29,457 And he showed me that those values 885 01:21:29,551 --> 01:21:30,791 don't exist. 886 01:21:30,886 --> 01:21:33,878 - Okay. - He destroyed my world. 887 01:21:33,972 --> 01:21:39,183 He destroyed my hope, everything. 888 01:21:39,269 --> 01:21:40,475 Right. 889 01:21:40,562 --> 01:21:41,562 So... 890 01:21:43,399 --> 01:21:47,062 How can it be possible, like, for a father? 891 01:21:49,113 --> 01:21:50,694 I don't know. 892 01:21:50,781 --> 01:21:53,397 I mean, we are... 893 01:21:53,492 --> 01:21:55,198 He made me. 894 01:21:56,912 --> 01:21:59,824 He's supposed to love me, to stay with me, 895 01:21:59,915 --> 01:22:02,907 to take care of me, but he doesn't. 896 01:22:03,001 --> 01:22:06,368 He's completely focused on other stupid stuff. 897 01:22:06,463 --> 01:22:08,124 Right. 898 01:22:10,300 --> 01:22:13,258 I don't... I don't know what to say. 899 01:22:13,345 --> 01:22:15,802 - Anyway... - I mean... yeah. 900 01:22:15,889 --> 01:22:17,754 Let's speak about something more. 901 01:22:17,850 --> 01:22:19,465 Okay, something else. 902 01:22:19,560 --> 01:22:21,892 What about your baby? 903 01:22:21,979 --> 01:22:25,142 She's good, I mean, you know, every day is a little miracle. 904 01:22:25,232 --> 01:22:29,441 She learns lots of stuff, she's talking a lot more. 905 01:22:29,528 --> 01:22:32,361 Um, you know, I love taking her to the park. 906 01:22:32,448 --> 01:22:36,532 I've got some stuff with her mother, but, um, 907 01:22:36,618 --> 01:22:37,824 you know about that. 908 01:22:39,580 --> 01:22:42,697 So, it's hard, you know? 909 01:22:42,791 --> 01:22:46,204 But I'm dealing with it, and, um, you know, 910 01:22:46,295 --> 01:22:49,002 making work and... 911 01:22:49,089 --> 01:22:50,829 I get to talk to you. 912 01:22:53,177 --> 01:22:54,667 Class was good, huh? 913 01:22:54,761 --> 01:22:57,377 Yeah, today was amazing. 914 01:22:57,473 --> 01:23:01,466 Yeah, I love having you in class. 915 01:23:01,560 --> 01:23:03,050 - Thanks. - No, it's nice, 916 01:23:03,145 --> 01:23:05,636 and I'm always happy to see you. 917 01:23:07,024 --> 01:23:10,357 Okay, so, maybe I should go. 918 01:23:10,444 --> 01:23:13,186 Yeah, what are you up to? 919 01:23:13,280 --> 01:23:15,145 I don't know. 920 01:23:15,240 --> 01:23:16,855 You gotta go? 921 01:23:16,950 --> 01:23:18,406 - Maybe, yeah. - Yeah, okay. 922 01:23:18,494 --> 01:23:20,735 Okay, all right, ciao. 923 01:24:03,330 --> 01:24:05,036 Okay, I gotta go. 924 01:24:05,791 --> 01:24:07,247 Okay. 925 01:26:27,766 --> 01:26:29,927 When you touch the fundamental nature 926 01:26:30,018 --> 01:26:33,431 of the ultimate reality of any phenomenon whatsoever, 927 01:26:33,522 --> 01:26:35,308 there is pleasure. 928 01:26:35,399 --> 01:26:37,890 Everything that exists is capable 929 01:26:37,984 --> 01:26:41,226 of eliciting pleasure in your mind, 930 01:26:41,321 --> 01:26:42,686 but you are narrow. 931 01:26:42,781 --> 01:26:44,817 Your mind has neurotic obsessions 932 01:26:44,908 --> 01:26:49,368 such as, "I only like things that are purple.” 933 01:26:49,454 --> 01:26:53,242 For you, only purple things are beautiful. 934 01:26:53,333 --> 01:26:55,540 This sort of neurotic, dualistic, 935 01:26:55,627 --> 01:26:59,245 unrealistic way of thinking only gets you into trouble, 936 01:26:59,339 --> 01:27:02,206 but we do it all the time, don't we? 937 01:27:26,616 --> 01:27:28,231 Hey! 938 01:27:32,956 --> 01:27:34,742 What's happening? 939 01:27:34,833 --> 01:27:36,824 How come you came here? 940 01:27:36,918 --> 01:27:38,909 What's with this surprise? 941 01:27:39,004 --> 01:27:40,335 What is this surprise? 942 01:27:45,927 --> 01:27:47,258 Okay, so... 943 01:28:01,568 --> 01:28:03,058 Hey! 944 01:28:06,615 --> 01:28:07,730 Ciao! 945 01:28:09,367 --> 01:28:10,607 Hey, Lisa. 946 01:28:10,702 --> 01:28:11,702 Oh! 947 01:28:13,038 --> 01:28:14,323 Hey! 948 01:28:15,207 --> 01:28:16,788 Oh! 949 01:28:21,838 --> 01:28:24,375 They're having fun, they're playing. 950 01:28:24,466 --> 01:28:28,425 I've been all over the park running after them. 951 01:28:45,362 --> 01:28:48,149 My name's Danny, and I'm an alcoholic. 952 01:28:48,240 --> 01:28:49,650 - Hi, Danny. - Hi, Danny. 953 01:28:49,741 --> 01:28:52,107 I've enjoyed the meeting, you know, 954 01:28:52,202 --> 01:28:55,194 and I'm listening to the stories around the room 955 01:28:55,288 --> 01:28:58,405 and just thinking about, you know, 956 01:28:58,500 --> 01:29:02,368 often when I come here, I'm afraid, you know. 957 01:29:02,462 --> 01:29:04,418 The thing that's in my mind most 958 01:29:04,506 --> 01:29:05,871 is feeling sorry for myself 959 01:29:05,966 --> 01:29:08,252 because everybody else is going to the pub, 960 01:29:08,343 --> 01:29:12,507 and I have to fucking come here and listen to people talking 961 01:29:15,517 --> 01:29:17,428 and I think about the way it was, 962 01:29:17,519 --> 01:29:19,601 like, going to the pub with a pint in the hand, 963 01:29:19,688 --> 01:29:22,179 cracking the jokes, and all the rest of it. 964 01:29:22,274 --> 01:29:25,061 So I come here and I'm feeling sorry for myself, 965 01:29:25,151 --> 01:29:28,063 but I'm quickly reminded of, you know, 966 01:29:28,154 --> 01:29:32,147 how good it is to be sober and, you know, 967 01:29:32,242 --> 01:29:34,528 I'm grateful because this week, as you all know, 968 01:29:34,619 --> 01:29:38,612 Noemi has been going through, you know, she has cancer, 969 01:29:38,707 --> 01:29:41,574 and, um, she did treatment already 970 01:29:41,668 --> 01:29:44,034 and things have been going really well, 971 01:29:44,129 --> 01:29:48,964 but, um, you know, we're going for a routine test this week, 972 01:29:49,050 --> 01:29:52,383 and unfortunately, the fucking thing's come back, 973 01:29:52,470 --> 01:29:56,088 you know, and it's not life-threatening, you know, 974 01:29:56,182 --> 01:29:59,845 by no means are we looking at death or anything like that, 975 01:29:59,936 --> 01:30:04,225 but when I come here and I'm feeling sorry for myself 976 01:30:04,316 --> 01:30:07,558 because I have to sit here and listen to people, 977 01:30:07,652 --> 01:30:09,392 and then I think about the reality 978 01:30:09,487 --> 01:30:12,945 that, you know, my future wife is facing, 979 01:30:13,033 --> 01:30:17,367 it brings in the sharp focus, the, you know, 980 01:30:17,454 --> 01:30:19,445 the selfish, self-centered nature 981 01:30:19,539 --> 01:30:21,621 of what it is that I suffer from, 982 01:30:21,708 --> 01:30:29,126 and it reminds me of how lucky I am to be here, you know. 983 01:30:29,215 --> 01:30:30,751 That's all I've got for this evening. 984 01:30:30,842 --> 01:30:31,877 Thanks very much. 985 01:30:31,968 --> 01:30:34,835 - Thanks, Danny. - Thanks, Danny. 986 01:30:34,930 --> 01:30:36,886 My name is souten, I'm an alcoholic. 987 01:30:36,973 --> 01:30:38,338 - Hi, souten. - Hi, souten. 988 01:30:38,433 --> 01:30:40,344 When I was about 19 years old, 989 01:30:40,435 --> 01:30:44,098 I was already 13 years drinking and doing drugs. 990 01:30:44,189 --> 01:30:48,057 I rock bottom big time. 991 01:30:48,151 --> 01:30:50,813 I came in aa, somebody helped me, 992 01:30:50,904 --> 01:30:53,691 and I stayed in the program for eight years, 993 01:30:53,782 --> 01:30:58,617 and then it stopped, and I picked up one drink, 994 01:30:58,703 --> 01:31:02,571 and I was fucked again for another 18 years. 995 01:31:02,666 --> 01:31:04,748 Four years ago, ll rock bottom 996 01:31:04,834 --> 01:31:07,541 a little different than the first time I rock bottom. 997 01:31:07,629 --> 01:31:09,210 I was in my house, 998 01:31:09,297 --> 01:31:12,460 and there were all people I don't know in my house. 999 01:31:12,550 --> 01:31:16,919 Everywhere were bottles with booze on the floors, 1000 01:31:17,013 --> 01:31:19,675 and cocaine on the table, 1001 01:31:19,766 --> 01:31:23,350 and women in my bed who I don't know. 1002 01:31:23,436 --> 01:31:25,552 And the worst thing is that my wife, 1003 01:31:25,647 --> 01:31:31,062 she was in the airplane coming from Amsterdam back home, 1004 01:31:31,152 --> 01:31:33,894 and I kick everybody out of my house, 1005 01:31:33,989 --> 01:31:37,322 I clean my house, and when I put the last bottle 1006 01:31:37,409 --> 01:31:40,446 in the busta nero, in the trash bag, 1007 01:31:40,537 --> 01:31:45,076 the taxi came up with my wife, and I run to the bathroom, 1008 01:31:45,166 --> 01:31:48,750 and I had this mirror moment, I looked in the mirror 1009 01:31:48,837 --> 01:31:54,673 after 18 years and I saw myself totally white with the red eyes. 1010 01:31:54,759 --> 01:31:56,750 And I thought, "fuck, man, that's not you, 1011 01:31:56,845 --> 01:31:59,882 that's the devil,” and there it hit me, 1012 01:31:59,973 --> 01:32:03,340 the little... something told me in my ears, 1013 01:32:03,435 --> 01:32:07,428 "you have to do something about your life, man." 1014 01:32:07,522 --> 01:32:09,058 And I did. 1015 01:32:09,149 --> 01:32:12,312 So I did a year full, every day a meeting. 1016 01:32:12,402 --> 01:32:16,862 That was my first sober year, and it was a miracle. 1017 01:32:16,948 --> 01:32:18,939 And then miracles started happening. 1018 01:32:19,034 --> 01:32:20,274 - Hey! - Can you give me a lift? 1019 01:32:20,326 --> 01:32:21,566 Yeah, come on. 1020 01:32:21,661 --> 01:32:22,972 All right, I'll see ya later on then. 1021 01:32:22,996 --> 01:32:25,282 Good luck, all the best, take it easy. 1022 01:32:25,373 --> 01:32:30,288 I just want to be free, free from all the bullshit. 1023 01:32:33,965 --> 01:32:35,501 Il must... 1 must be careful. 1024 01:32:35,592 --> 01:32:38,174 Yeah, okay. No, I'll walk you down. 1025 01:32:38,261 --> 01:32:40,297 Oh, no, I'm coming with you. 1026 01:32:40,388 --> 01:32:42,344 You're coming... Oh, you're coming. 1027 01:32:42,432 --> 01:32:44,423 Watch your step. 1028 01:32:47,896 --> 01:32:49,386 Okay. 1029 01:32:57,697 --> 01:33:01,906 It's just, uh, becoming more and more a problem, you know, 1030 01:33:01,993 --> 01:33:06,111 and I know it, uh, has to do with the baby 1031 01:33:06,206 --> 01:33:08,447 sleeping with us, but I mean, uh... 1032 01:33:08,541 --> 01:33:10,372 But the baby has its own bed, doesn'tit? 1033 01:33:10,460 --> 01:33:11,540 No, no. 1034 01:33:11,628 --> 01:33:13,664 No, she fucking sleeps with us. 1035 01:33:13,755 --> 01:33:15,336 So she's using the bed? 1036 01:33:15,423 --> 01:33:17,038 Well, I mean, you know, 1037 01:33:17,133 --> 01:33:20,625 ever since... ever since that baby was born, everything changed. 1038 01:33:20,720 --> 01:33:24,804 You know, I don't know, we just don't, uh... 1039 01:33:24,891 --> 01:33:28,258 Yeah, it changed like overnight. 1040 01:33:28,353 --> 01:33:31,390 What I think is happening here, I think, 1041 01:33:31,481 --> 01:33:37,351 is that she is living out a childhood experience. 1042 01:33:37,445 --> 01:33:41,108 The scenes which are occurring now between you and her, 1043 01:33:41,199 --> 01:33:43,565 I would think that they probably reflect 1044 01:33:43,660 --> 01:33:46,652 what was happening in the house when she was a child, 1045 01:33:46,746 --> 01:33:48,702 and she's provoking that. 1046 01:33:48,790 --> 01:33:54,330 She has created this white... White knight in shining armor 1047 01:33:54,420 --> 01:33:57,708 that she idolizes, but in a sense, 1048 01:33:57,799 --> 01:34:00,131 you can't... you should not take away that figure 1049 01:34:00,218 --> 01:34:02,004 because that figure, for the moment, 1050 01:34:02,095 --> 01:34:03,756 is holding her together. 1051 01:34:07,600 --> 01:34:11,058 The big problem is, I have such fucking rage about this 1052 01:34:11,146 --> 01:34:13,762 'cause I know I have no place to, uh... 1053 01:34:13,857 --> 01:34:15,393 To discharge it. 1054 01:34:18,111 --> 01:34:20,227 But that's the number one issue at the moment. 1055 01:34:20,321 --> 01:34:22,687 Why does that tie up to the anger? 1056 01:34:22,782 --> 01:34:27,321 Because the anger occupies so much space in your life. 1057 01:34:27,412 --> 01:34:30,825 There's very little energy left for anything else, 1058 01:34:30,915 --> 01:34:34,658 so if you create areas of interest 1059 01:34:34,752 --> 01:34:36,617 for you, like empathy for people, 1060 01:34:36,713 --> 01:34:38,249 you're involved in their lives. 1061 01:34:38,339 --> 01:34:41,923 Energy flows there, so there is less energy for the anger. 1062 01:34:42,010 --> 01:34:44,171 Look, we are like... When we come into aa, 1063 01:34:44,262 --> 01:34:47,049 we're like lost souls, lost fucking souls. 1064 01:34:47,140 --> 01:34:49,176 Your soul is either hanging off the fucking tree 1065 01:34:49,267 --> 01:34:52,304 or it's over there, and you have to get it back, 1066 01:34:52,395 --> 01:34:57,105 and by becoming human, but joining with the other gods, 1067 01:34:57,192 --> 01:35:01,902 uh, slowly it got accommodated sort of in its own fucking time. 1068 01:35:03,406 --> 01:35:05,397 And you have... You become your own self, 1069 01:35:05,491 --> 01:35:08,904 and you give yourself your dignity, not she. 1070 01:35:08,995 --> 01:35:13,079 That's... then the codependency ends there at that stage, 1071 01:35:13,166 --> 01:35:14,201 you understand? 1072 01:35:23,051 --> 01:35:25,167 Interior: Cafe, nightfall. 1073 01:35:25,261 --> 01:35:27,968 The two enter cafe and make their way to the bar. 1074 01:35:28,056 --> 01:35:31,298 Clint moves behind bar and prepares them warm drinks, 1075 01:35:31,392 --> 01:35:33,178 knowing already what they want. 1076 01:35:33,269 --> 01:35:35,134 They speak to each other in Russian, 1077 01:35:35,230 --> 01:35:37,016 and whether Clint knows the language, 1078 01:35:37,106 --> 01:35:39,062 it is also hard to tell. 1079 01:35:39,150 --> 01:35:41,141 After encouragement from the mother, 1080 01:35:41,236 --> 01:35:43,227 the girl stands up and opens her clothes 1081 01:35:43,321 --> 01:35:45,152 to reveal she is pregnant. 1082 01:35:45,240 --> 01:35:46,855 Clint's eyes come alive. 1083 01:35:46,950 --> 01:35:50,067 The feeling is as if they traversed the galaxy 1084 01:35:50,161 --> 01:35:52,994 and now were its only two inhabitants. 1085 01:35:53,081 --> 01:35:55,663 On the furs, they begin to make love, 1086 01:35:55,750 --> 01:35:58,162 both breathing in rhythm as one. 1087 01:35:58,253 --> 01:36:01,245 They come together. It sounds like music. 1088 01:37:56,996 --> 01:37:58,907 Um, I'm tired. 1089 01:38:14,263 --> 01:38:16,299 I'm... I'm gonna go to sleep. 1090 01:38:16,391 --> 01:38:18,723 I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. 1091 01:38:42,250 --> 01:38:43,410 Fuck. 1092 01:39:36,053 --> 01:39:37,293 Fuck. 1093 01:42:11,334 --> 01:42:13,871 Take this. 1094 01:42:13,961 --> 01:42:15,747 It's all I have. 1095 01:44:33,517 --> 01:44:35,599 Good evening. 1096 01:44:35,686 --> 01:44:38,018 A quick coffee, please. 1097 01:44:48,699 --> 01:44:50,655 - Here's your coffee. - Thanks. 1098 01:44:54,121 --> 01:44:55,611 See you, thanks. 1099 01:45:17,061 --> 01:45:18,642 Yo! 1100 01:45:18,729 --> 01:45:20,185 Hey! 1101 01:45:21,357 --> 01:45:22,597 Goddamn it, what are you... 1102 01:45:22,691 --> 01:45:25,728 - Just stop it! - Where are you going? 1103 01:45:25,820 --> 01:45:28,232 - Why don't you wait for me? - Listen, you stop. 1104 01:45:28,322 --> 01:45:30,187 You know damn well I need you! 1105 01:45:30,282 --> 01:45:31,897 I need you to go to the... 1106 01:45:35,454 --> 01:45:36,454 What's wrong with you? 1107 01:45:36,497 --> 01:45:37,907 Don't scream at her! 1108 01:45:39,834 --> 01:45:41,119 Fuck you! 1109 01:45:41,210 --> 01:45:42,996 What? Stop what? Don't touch me! 1110 01:45:43,087 --> 01:45:44,793 What are you doing? We just go out... 1111 01:45:46,507 --> 01:45:48,247 And you don't even help me with anything! 1112 01:45:48,342 --> 01:45:49,342 Stop it! 1113 01:45:50,052 --> 01:45:51,542 You're a big problem! 1114 01:45:51,637 --> 01:45:53,252 I need you, I need you. 1115 01:45:53,347 --> 01:45:54,803 Why... why did we go out? 1116 01:45:54,890 --> 01:45:56,801 - To fix the lamp! - Oh my god. 1117 01:45:56,892 --> 01:45:58,803 What do you? You run off. What the fuck? 1118 01:45:58,894 --> 01:46:01,226 This is not about what you do, look at you! 1119 01:46:01,313 --> 01:46:02,644 What? You're the problem! 1120 01:46:02,731 --> 01:46:04,062 You're the fucking problem! 1121 01:46:04,149 --> 01:46:05,605 Don't scream at her! 1122 01:46:05,693 --> 01:46:08,901 Look at you, you look insane! 1123 01:46:11,448 --> 01:46:13,029 What happened? 1124 01:46:13,117 --> 01:46:14,402 He's crazy! 1125 01:46:14,493 --> 01:46:15,733 You are the problem! 1126 01:46:15,828 --> 01:46:16,988 What happened? 1127 01:46:17,079 --> 01:46:18,865 That's my baby! 1128 01:46:18,956 --> 01:46:21,368 Did they steal your wallet? 1129 01:46:21,458 --> 01:46:24,370 Nothing! 1130 01:46:30,801 --> 01:46:32,007 Fuck. 1131 01:46:37,725 --> 01:46:39,761 Fucking shit! 1132 01:46:44,648 --> 01:46:46,309 Fucking bitch! 1133 01:46:48,360 --> 01:46:49,770 What the... 1134 01:46:55,075 --> 01:46:56,406 Shit! 1135 01:47:11,717 --> 01:47:16,177 If you really check up deeper what you do, 1136 01:47:16,263 --> 01:47:19,255 what you did, since you were born up to now, 1137 01:47:19,350 --> 01:47:23,468 which is really worthwhile to bring the true happiness 1138 01:47:23,562 --> 01:47:25,598 and the joyful life, what you did? 1139 01:47:25,689 --> 01:47:26,769 You check up. 1140 01:47:30,194 --> 01:47:33,061 You check up. Don't look others. 1141 01:47:33,155 --> 01:47:35,237 You check up your own action. 1142 01:47:42,081 --> 01:47:45,573 You have your body, your speech, your mind. 1143 01:47:45,668 --> 01:47:47,533 These three. 1144 01:47:47,628 --> 01:47:51,917 Okay, these three actions, what you did worthwhile? 1145 01:47:54,343 --> 01:47:56,049 You check up that way. 1146 01:47:56,136 --> 01:47:57,876 It's so simple. 1147 01:49:47,206 --> 01:49:48,537 Look at me. 1148 01:49:48,624 --> 01:49:53,909 Look at me! 1149 01:49:54,004 --> 01:49:56,120 Oh my god! 1150 01:49:59,718 --> 01:50:01,299 No! 1151 01:50:04,932 --> 01:50:06,797 Pull. 1152 01:50:06,892 --> 01:50:08,598 Pull! 1153 01:50:08,685 --> 01:50:10,266 Stop it! 1154 01:50:11,855 --> 01:50:14,096 Stop it! 1155 01:50:16,568 --> 01:50:19,981 You make like you're insane! 1156 01:50:20,072 --> 01:50:23,280 I got enough of you! 1157 01:50:23,367 --> 01:50:26,074 I can't stand youl! 1158 01:50:26,161 --> 01:50:30,495 I don't love you, I'm sorry, I don't love you! 1159 01:53:58,332 --> 01:53:59,913 Bada.